As the baby’s due date gets closer and closer, I’ve really started to feel it. My outwardly lax attitude that I’ve had for the majority of this pregnancy is quickly fading. We are having a baby, and we are having one really soon.
It was time I started the “nesting” process. You know, everything you have to do to prepare for the arrival of a baby. So while Aya’s personality had changed into a hormonal naggy wife, I’ve turned into a Type A organizational control freak.
I feel fortunate to be able to say that Aya is pretty easy to live with. She does have her quirks, and I know I have mine, but we can be pretty easy going. And since I manage so much around the house between cooking, cleaning, yard maintenance, and home repairs, she’s always saying “thank you” and telling me how much she appreciates it. She’s never harping on me and shoving a “honey do” list in my face. I can even leave the garage a mess or the basement trashed for months and she won’t say a word. And other than being restricted from using the coupon book, I can usually do whatever I want without question.
However, there is something about pregnancy that is extracting the naggy wife deep within her and bringing it to the surface not only making her a back seat driver in the car, but in life. My life.
Dear Bunnee,
Well, girl…the more and more you’re making yourself comfortable in mama’s belly, the more and more mama’s getting uncomfortable these days. That’s a given as you grow, but boy, are you making mama reevaluate how I spend my energy! You’re like a stress indicator for me. The more stressed out or agitated I am, I notice that you wiggle around and kick me more as if to tell me “Slow down, mama!” I’m going to do a better job listening to you, okay?
xoxo Mama
So far with this pregnancy, I often forget that Aya’s pregnant. I know, I know, it’s been almost 8 months. It’s not that I forgot or don’t care, it’s just that there are so many more distractions than last time. Ellie has me working extra hard these days so I’m not thinking too much, “Hey we’re having a baby soon! Ahh!”
It’s more like, “Eh, been there done that, we’ll be fine. We’ll readjust when the baby arrives.”
I don’t seem to have that fear of the unknown this time. Or do I? Am I holding things in, burying them deep within my subconscious to come out later unexpectedly, in crazy ways, like in my dreams? I guess maybe. I have noticed my dreams getting a little crazier than usual lately. Especially one in particular.
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Dear Bunnee,
I don’t know how you do it Bunnee. Â We haven’t even “met” yet and you’ve already been giving me so much inner peace. Â I don’t think I’ve ever felt as present and at peace with myself and my surroundings as I do now. Â I think it’s good team work because it allows me to be even more in tune and present with you. Â And the more I am feeling aware and protective of you, the more you seem to tell me that “everything’s okay.”
xoxo Mama
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